Oh hai.

Dec. 27th, 2010 03:39 pm
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I'm still here. I know I haven't been posting hardly at all lately, but I just really haven't had much to say. And in a lot of ways, I feel like maybe I've...outgrown this journal? I don't know if "outgrown" is really the right word. I'm not ready to say "no more LJ ever again". And I'm not deleting anything. But I doubt I'll be posting much. I still read, as much as I'm able. This new job has been kicking my ass. In a good way. And my attention has just drifted elsewhere. *shrug*

And there's a lot of history here, over 7 years of my life, the triumphs and the tragedies and everything are all here. And sometimes I feel like all that history is weighing me down. The last year of my life has been like one long slow press of a reset button. It's not been easy to finally let it up, but I think I'm finally at peace with everything that's happened in the last few years.

I'm still going to be around, and I'll still comment here and there. And I may even post once in a blue moon. I make no promises, though. I think this is a good stopping point, though. When it's calm and quiet, and I'm in a peaceful frame of mind. My account is paid up through February, but I won't be renewing it. It was a good run, though. :)

And according to my stats, this makes entry #2,599. That's a lot of yammering at the internet since September of 2003. I'm surprised I didn't run out of steam long before now.

Not much left to say except that's all folks. I'll be around. :)

Oh hai!

Mar. 14th, 2009 03:11 pm
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Yes, it's official, I'm back. :) The bad news is, I no longer have Serenity, my laptop. So I'm either going to be posting via my PS3's browser with a USB keyboard (which I prefer, because who doesn't want to have a 40” monitor?) or from my mom's laptop.

Mom picked up an Asus Eee PC for like 200 bucks, and I have to admit, it's not too shabby. I never have been a Linux fan, but I'm getting used to it. It has fuck all for storage capacity, but that's ok. I managed to resurrect my external hard drive, and all its contents. Turns out it wasn't bricked after all, just Serenity decided she didn't want to fool with it anymore. She always was a snob when it came to peripherals. Oh well. It's a 500 GB drive, so this tiny little laptop will do just fine with that added to it. And I do mean tiny. I could hollow out my hardcover copy of Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoenix and hide it in there.

Wherein I update you on the last five or six months of my life )
dextra: (Talk geeky to me)
I have a job now. Another purchasing gig, and I like it so far. I'm having to learn a little Japanese, because the management and a good portion of my coworkers are themselves. So there's a little bit o' sunshine.

The kids stayed over last night, but I wish I'd have gotten to see them sooner or got to keep them longer. Due to being unable to afford gas to get to Morehead, I hadn't seen them in about three weeks.

I think my mother is losing her fucking mind. Can stomach cancer affect the brain? I'm starting to believe it. She's acting like a friggin' teenager, and not in the fun, frivolous way. More like the reckless and irresponsible way, and I don't like it.

Anyway, I'll make a voice post later tonight that's a little more detailed. I should at least be pretending to work, but everyone's in a meeting but me and I ran out of things to do. :p
dextra: (Power Girl)
I'm hanging out here at my little brother's place tonight and taking him to Berea in the morning for his movie-related things. Not really much happening other than that.

I am feeling like crud, though. My chest is hurting pretty bad from a chest cold. And I played like 300 games of video poker on Goob's Dreamcast (yay archaic technology). So that gave me a headache. I actually put in my contacts today and they were feeling good and everything, but I forget that when I go a while without wearing them that I shouldn't go a full day of wear at first. Really, I should only wear them a few hours and then take them out, and work up to a full day over a week. Otherwise, the aforementioned headache occurs.

I also had to adjust the rate plans on my phone when I looked at my last bill. I had a text/internet plan on there that was just ass-backwards. I only check my email on my phone, that's it, but I text like a mofo. But my plan was for unlimited internet usage and 200 text messages. Last month I used less than 2 MB worth of net usage and *chuckles oddly* 1,047 text messages. So yeah, I flipped that around to unlimited texts and limited internet usage. And somehow, it came out $5 cheaper. *shrugs* Shit's weird.

Uh, lesse here...I don't think there's anything else worth mentioning. Oh, I rewired my clothes dryer to work with the ancient-ass wiring in my mom's house. That was a bit of an adventure. But hey, if it has wires and/or buttons, I can fix it. Most of the time. Except for that clock radio I got for Christmas when I was 9. I had this thing for a while where I wanted to take things apart and see how they worked. I just...couldn't always get them to go back together the same way. But hey, that was twenty-something years ago. I'm much smarter than that now. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to go plug in the toaster so's I can flush the toilet.
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"Mother Mother" by Tracy Bonham

dextra: (Firefly - Twixt my nethers)
I've just been either busy or distracted. So here's a list to save my sanity:

1. My mother called me yesterday upset because she'd been sick, and when she went to the doctor, found out she has diabetes. I'm not too surprised, because her father had it. But yay. One more disease to put on the list of possible things that will kill me. Apparently she's got a pretty bad case, since the doc wants to try her on pills before going straight to insulin, but told Mom that the insulin is looking like the only way to go.

2. I'm going job hunting on Monday, since the roads are clear again. And I don't have relatives all over my house.

3. I've been trying to help Chris out with the store. I've been getting convention materials together, and making signs and whatnot. I like doing it, and since it directly affects the welfare of my children, well, how can I not help out. Plus, hey, comics.

4. Also, the weekend before my birthday (April 26th or 27th) I've been shanghaied into attending Botcon, which is a Transformers convention. I know people going, and it's good for business, so I'm getting the store registered for that. And since it's in Cincinatti, I'm hitting the LUSH store while I'm there. *GLARINGLY OBVIOUS HINT, LEENIE*

5. I bought the children a robotic panda. The longer the day goes on, the more I am regretting this decision.

6. I have a ginormous pile of boxes in the kitchen that still need to be broken down and put out with the garbage. I'll get around to it. Eventually.

7. I bought a power screwdriver and a bit for dealing with stripped screws, because I am intelligent. And because half my bed is still in the living room.

8. I got a little irritated at a friend for showing up unannounced at Chris and Sara's house because he was looking for me. One, that's not cool. Two, it was Valentine's Day. I had bought alcohol for us all and they were going to have pity on me and drink with me. Instead, Adam shows up with his girlfriend's brother (who none of us had ever met) and just hangs out there. So I finished my drink and had them follow me to my place. I didn't mind hanging out with them, but a phone call would have been nice. Plus, the whole showing up at Chris' house was not cool because there was apparently a problem with Adam hitting on people when their significant others were not around. So...that wasn't good. And I felt like an asshole because I told Adam to come hang out "sometime". I didn't mean THAT NIGHT.

9. I'm going to dismantle that goddamn panda while the kids are asleep tonight. I can feel the urge rising.

10. Or, alternately, I just really need to get laid.


Jan. 23rd, 2006 03:32 pm
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I finally found a library around here dumb enough to let me use a computer. *snicker* I'll make this short and sweet as I don't have a lot of time. I didn't get the job at Discover, which really pissed me off, since I wasted my time on two interviews and a lot of fucking gas. But, it's ok, I've got three interviews lined up for tomorrow and a couple more Wednesday and Friday.

We've been really tight on cash for the past couple of months, but we should have the laptop back when we get our tax refunds in. I've been trying to get in touch with someone (or anyone, for that matter) at my old job so that I can even get my last paycheck, since they never bothered to send it to me. I think I've been more than patient.

Today explains the icon. There was a job fair at the civic center in Phoenix, and I was all ready for it, and charged off to it as soon as I got everyone else off to school and work. Only my dumb ass forgot to take any money with me, and you can't park in downtown Phoenix for less than $5.00. *facepalm* Oh well. That's when I went home dejected, called a bunch of places that were in the want ads, and landed all those interviews. So, it wasn't all that bad, just frustrating.

I just left the kids' school, since I had conferences with both their teachers. They're a little behind, what with all the moving confusion, and this school seems to be moving at 55 mph, when their old school was at about 35, if that makes sense. So they didn't get the same concepts down before coming here, so I've had to work more with them at home to try and catch them up, which is hard, because they like their teachers better than me, at least when it comes to learning. With me, they just want to whine because they think I'm just going to give up and let them go play. Ha. Not even.

So, I miss you weirdos and weirdettes, and hopefully I'll be back online eventually. I won't even say soon anymore because honestly, I have no idea. And now I must be off, because surely the monkeys are off terrorizing some poor librarian as I type.


Jul. 11th, 2005 07:04 pm
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Why is it that now I'm having a serious craving for a cigarette, when I haven't had one for a week? *pulls hair* NOT FAIR DAMMIT.

BTW, I got the package, Katy, thanks. I needed that. *grins and hugs you* Unfortunately, the bath gel leaked a little bit, but not much. It just got the inside of the bag left. It didn't get on the book.
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I managed to get out of the house and go to my interviews. I still felt shitty for most of the morning. I went to my first interview at Alternative Staffing, and the interview went well, but then there were the tests. They had me do a typing test and an alpha-numeric data entry test. I did horrible on both. I had been feeling woozy all morning, and I just couldn't focus. Normally I can type about 50 words a minute without even trying, but I barely managed 30. And the data entry didn't go much better, since I ended up meshing two entries together. *smacks own forehead*

Went to Westaff, and it was pretty much the same procedure, only they didn't make me take any tests. Both places assured me that they could find something for me in about a week. I'm not going to count on that, so I'm going to be making some phone calls and sending out more resumes tomorrow. And the funny thing is, all the interviews I've gotten are from places I've applied to online. I haven't even gotten a call from any of the places I applied to at the mall. Oh well.
More ramblings )
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I'm not going anywhere today. I was hoping that I would get over it, but I'm just as bad off today as I was yesterday. Now my voice is completely gone. I just hope I don't have strep throat. I don't think I have a fever now. It kept coming back whenever the Day-Quil would wear off. Last night after CJ came home, I think it finally broke, because I was sweating like a pig for a couple of hours. I emailed the companies I was supposed to go to later, and I hope they'll let me reschedule. One I think will, the other two, I don't know. Not exactly the best first impression.

I've got my tea, and some toast that I'm going to attempt to choke down. The only thing I managed yesterday was half a sandwich and a couple of frozen fruit bars, and I lost the sandwich about an hour after I ate it. So I'm kinda woozy now. I'd lie down, but that's all I've done for the past 24 hours. I'm tired of it. My house is a wreck, but I don't have the strength to clean. CJ doesn't have the time, so I guess those dishes will just have to wait.
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I'm sick. I had a tickle in my throat when I went to bed, and about an hour or so later, I woke up choking (I had a nightmare that someone was choking me - it happens a lot). Only the glands in my throat felt swollen. I got a drink of water and went back to sleep. Woke up and felt worse. I'm pretty sure I've got a fever. I'll have to find the thermometer to make sure.

I probably wouldn't even be awake right now if I didn't have to get up and rid my body of fluids and slime. And CJ lost the keys to his desk cabinet at work, which also had the keys to his bike's locks, so I helped him look for those. Never did find them. He's afraid he might have accidentally knocked them into the trash he took out last night. Yay.

And we're broke until he gets paid, which sucks the big one. God I can't wait until that tax check comes in. We should be able to get a decent vehicle with that and have some cash left over to put in the bank. And I found out that Albertson's delievers groceries, and I can just go to their website and place the order there. Only problem with that is, the site sucks on my connection. So...poop. I was hoping to avoid spending money on a cab, but I've found a few stores that are a lot closer than Wal-Mart, so it might not be as bad this time.

I'm gonna go lie down and not move for the rest of the day if I can help it. I wish my Spongebob fleece blanket were about three times bigger. It's comfy, but it's just one of those little throws. Time to go rip the comforter off the bed.

ETA: Yep. 100.2. And it's probably going to get up to 110 outside, yet I'm in here bundled up like it's Feburary in Alaska.

ETA 2: CJ called just as I was about to fall asleep. He found his keys. He'd left them on his desk. *facepalm*


Jul. 5th, 2005 02:16 am
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Got to see some fireworks and didn't really even have to go anywhere. I knew there was a fireworks show about 12 blocks away, but we didn't have to go that far. We just walked up to the front of the complex and sat on the wall by the sidewalk. So that was nice. Eric came over and he and CJ got to do the manly thing and grill meat. They went swimming after we ate, but I didn't really feel like it. Mostly because I didn't want to be seen in a bathing suit.
Just a bit of a rant on various subjects )

Made it.

Jun. 4th, 2005 09:13 pm
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I'm lying on my new living room floor on my futon and Jerry Garcia is singing on my tv. Believe I may have moved to another dimension. More details tomorrow when my delirium has subsided.
dextra: (Something wrong with you)
We should be on the road by this afternoon, I hope. I won't bore you with details. I'm tired of them myself. I did get an electric cooler for the van though, so that'll be nice. And we found the car kit for the cd player. Even better. Just have to go get the trailer hooked up from U-haul and toss everything into it. I saw a power strip for running multiple devices through the car's battery, so I'm going to pick up one of those. They have those things with up to four ports on them, but I think three should be enough. One each for the cooler, cd player, and the phone charger. Four would be nice, but then I'd be tempted to run the laptop as well. I think that would be a bit much. Because if I had all that in my van, I don't know if I would want to bother moving into a new apartment, except for having a bathroom, that is.

So I'll be bored out of my wits within a couple of hours. I'm taking a couple of books, and we'll have music and all that normal car stuff. But if anyone wants to call me while I'm out on the road, feel free. In fact, please do. Click here to send me a text message. The link is also in my userinfo. Text me your number and I'll call you back. (And I just tested it. It really works! Whee!) Although I must warn you that I've been playing mother hen to CJ since he's apparently regressed to adolescence. In other words, I'm smacking his hand off my boob every five minutes. So, y'know, if I start carrying on about tits and beatings, it's not you. It's me. Or him, rather.

I was going to try to get some more sleep, but I was going to be up in a couple of hours anyway. Bugger. Guess I'll be catching a nap on the road. At least the limitations of the van compared to the Grand Am make CJ drive a little saner. Don't get me wrong, he's a good driver. He just tends to want to outrun everyone on the road. Or straight up their ass if they're in front of him. He actually caught me pushing my "phantom brake" yesterday. That's when I try to make the car slow down or stop through sheer force of will (and by smashing the pedal-less floorboard with my foot). Oh well. I'll check in on LJ if we stop somewhere for the night, if I'm not too tired. Otherwise, see you guys in a couple of days.
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That's all. I wish I had something interesting to say, but I don't. *shrug*

Found out what's wrong with the van. Just the little computer box, and that is being taken care of. Everything else is fine. We're going to be leaving tomorrow, Friday at the very latest. I'm wanting to leave tomorrow so that we don't try to be stupid and drive straight through. And from what I can tell, there isn't a goddamn thing on I-10 between San Antonio and El Paso. I would really like to start out early in the morning, and hopefully make it all the way across Texas in a day. Good fucking luck there, considering we're on the eastern end of Louisiana, too. If we make it to El Paso, then we can edge out of Texas and into New Mexico. Get a room somewhere in Las Cruces, pass out, then get up early and drive some more.

I just want to get this over with. To just be there and have the shitty part over with, that would be fantastic. I did find the car kit for my walkman, so at least I can listen to our cds in the van. Might get a decent cd player for it eventually. I need to finish tacking up the headliner. Bad thing about those Dodge vans is that shit always falls off.

Oh, I'm going to send out an email about my address again, since they changed the apartment we'll be getting. My apartment number is going to be 144, rather than 199. So, just a heads up. And if you didn't get it at all, and feel like you should, then yell at me and I'll smack you upside the head. And then I'll email you my address.

Hmm. Think I'm going to go outside and have a quick smoke, and then try to find my bed. It seems to have been invaded by every article of clothing in the house.
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Well, I thought I should throw a few words this way so that people don't think I've fallen off the face of the planet. I'm still working my ass (of which there is considerably less these days) off for the pizza pit. I'm working about 10 hours a day, 6 days a week, so there isn't much time for anything else really. I come home, pop in a movie and collapse on the couch. Then I wake up and do that all over again. I'm really relating to Clerks a little too well. I'm thinking of making that as recommended viewing for all new employees, so that they know what to expect. The boss says no, but I'll make her come around. The woman adores me for some reason.

Let's see, what's new....I got a raise about a week ago, and that was kind of nice. Not a fortune, but every little bit helps. I've finally gotten a bit more furniture in the house, and that is fucking awesome. And I had a visitor a couple of weeks ago, that I thought I might never see again. Not a bad few weeks, actually. And I've got some ideas and plans in the works. Those are remaining top secret for the time being, until the details get worked out. I'll give full details when I feel I'm at liberty to do so.

For now, I'm-a gonna go home, drink some beer, and watch the new Invader Zim dvd I picked up yesterday.

In the meantime, Jen (Avalon), expect a letter in the next week or so.

Drew, call me at work, I'm always there. If by some chance I'm not, leave me a message and I'll call ya back.
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Let's see, what's new? Not much really. Still working my ass (which I've noticed I have less of lately) off at Little Caesar's, but now I'm a manager. So that means I get to yell at shiftless layabouts and get paid for it. Makes me miss Bottalk now that I think about it. Heh.

I have furniture in the house now, including a nice little (well, I shouldn't say little, it takes up half the damn living room) recliner sofa. I got it from Kevin. I had a copy of Kingdom Hearts, and no PS2 anymore, so I said I'd sell it to him for $15. He calls me at work later that night and said he had a sofa for me if I'd rather make a trade, so I said if he'd get it to my house, I'd take it. When I got home that night, big blue sofa on my back porch. Only problem with that is that it wouldn't fit in the back door. So I had to wait a couple of days for him and Trusty to come over and haul it around to the front and get it in the house. The fucker is HEAVY.

I've been working so much that I haven't really had time to do anything else. There's a lot of people I miss talking to, and when I am alone at home, the silence is deafening. Good thing I've got a lot of music to drown out THAT particular sound. I'm thinking that after I get the bills paid at the first of the month I'm going to look at getting the cable (with net service) hooked up. Kevin had told me about a broadband phone company, so I might take a look at that.

Not much else to talk about, that's of any interest to anyone but me. But I will say this. Love is like rain, you never know when it will begin or end. Well, looks like the sky has cleared up again. This is what I get for trusting people. Should have known better.
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Borrowed from [livejournal.com profile] knytehawke. A quiz that actually requires thought. Whoda thunk it?

1. What's your job? Don't have one at the present time.

2. What do you actually tell people your job is? Depends on who's asking. If it's someone who can take a joke, I'll tell them I'm an agent of the dark lords, but my duties are largely ceremonial

3. Are you working the job you wanted as a career? Nope.

4. What career do you really want? Of all the things I want to do, I still want to be a writer the most. I like drawing, I like radio, but writing is just my thing. If I could get over the whole stage fright thing I seem to have developed since high school, I'd like to sing, but I'm over the hill (aka over 21), so that wouldn't work anyway. But it's nice to dream.

5. Which parent influenced you the most? Mom, obviously. The sperm donor was never around.

6. Do you have any siblings? Yup. My brother's 24 and my sister's 17.

7. Did you get along? When we were kids, my brother and I tortured each other, but it was all in good fun. We get along okay now. My sister and I were born 10 years apart, so when I was a teenager, she was a toddler. So we didn't really get along all that well. And now we tolerate each other, but we get along great when we're not living in the same house.

8. What was your best subject in high school? Art and chorus. I wasn't very academically inclined then. :p

9. What was actually your favorite subject in high school? Same thing.

10. Did you go to college afterwards? A long time after. About 8 years, actually.

11. What was your major? Broadcast journalism, art minor

12. Did you graduate? No. I want to, I really do. And all the time I have people asking me if I plan to go back. I'd love to, but I also have 2 kids to take care of and I like having things like food and shelter. If I can figure out how to go to school, work full time, take care of my kids, and be able to have enough time and energy to give the appropriate attention to each, I'm there. But I don't see it happening for a while.

13. How old are you? 26. And I'll be 26 again on my birthday.

14. Are you married? Yes and no. (long story)

15. Did you marry the person or type of person you always thought you would? Hell no. That's why I'm getting a divorce.

16. Name two goals you set for yourself that you have already accomplished. I lived past 21 and I'm not in jail. So far so good.

17. Name two goals you set for yourself that you haven't accomplished yet. Finish college. Smite my enemies with a trout.

18. Were you an indoor or an outdoor kid? Really depended on the weather. If it was warm, I was outside all the time. You couldn't keep me in the house. But if it was cold out, fuck that. I was in a blanket.

19. Who was your best friend growing up and now? When I was growing up, Roxie. But we've just grown apart. I'll see her every once in a great while, but we really don't keep in touch. Now? [livejournal.com profile] mad_mortigan, without a doubt.

20. What is your one greatest, secret dream? If I tell you then it would no longer be a secret, now would it? :p
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Ever just get the feeling like the other shoe's about to drop? I don't know why, but all day long, I've had this feeling of something....impending. Not necessarily even impending doom. Just something. And it's not being able to figure out what it is that's driving me batty.

I've got a bit of a Spider-sense (yeah, the geekgirl strikes again). I'll get this feeling that something's up. It could be something about to happen, someone close to me being in trouble, someone just trying to find me or contact me, and I'll know. Every hair on the back of my neck will stand on end. The top and back of my head, neck, and ears will get hot. It's a whole new take on your ears burning, I'll tell you that much. And I'll get this panicky feeling. It's kind of scary when it sneaks up on me, and it usually does.

But I got that feeling today when I was just sitting around the house. Since I was just sitting watching tv, it was easier to pay attention to the sensations, and identify them. Whereas before I would just be like "what the fuck was that?!" and have to continue what I was doing. It's a scary feeling when you're driving.

Sometimes I can identify the source. Like if a certain person is trying to contact me, I'll know when it's him. Or if it has something to do with my kids, I'll know that too. But when something's about to happen, I can't tell what it is until the event has occurred. In the meantime, I have a nagging feeling that stays with me until I can say "Ohhhh....so THAT'S what it was all about."

But right now, I just have the naggy feeling, and it's driving me bonkers. That and my stepdad is feeling better, and has chosen to use his good mood to torture me with his oh so witty jokes. Can you feel my excitement? -_-
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It was one of them days...


Woke out of a dead sleep upon realizing I had to be at work at 11:00. Walk out of bedroom to see mother snoring in front of television. Tell mother to wake up, get dressed, guzzle a Frappucino, drive to work. Realize I forgot the weekend's movies about 10 minutes after I get there.

11:30am - 1:00pm

Spent awash in a sea of VHS tapes, boxes, price tags, UPC labels, and shrinkwrap rushing to get tapes ready for sale.


Took break. Went outside to smoke, and giant snowflake flew down back of pants. Entertained coworkers by screaming and jumping around on the sidewalk for several minutes.


Explained to Customer #6536757342 that they cannot take any merchandise past the security gates. Proceeded to cuss and complain about their bastard children that rearranged all the video games for the next hour while I had to put them back in order.

3:30 pm

After having run in overdrive all day to make sure everything got done, I now had nothing to do. Boss says to go ahead and clock out. Ride doesn't show up for another half hour.


Ride (mother) shows up, and then peruses shelves for 20 minutes because "It's such a good sale!" Buys 4 VHS tapes, three of which were crap. One was The Ninth Gate. All was forgiven.


Get home. Get bombarded by children, sister, and stepfather attempting to pry movies from my frozen fingers. Thaw out, eat snack, sit at computer. Check email, talk on YIM, try to convince children that Doby from Harry Potter is not real, and not under the bed. Go to Bottalk, answer posts, decide I need warmer clothes....


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